What I miss most is . . .
Wrong question. It is not what I miss the most ,but it is whom I miss most. I miss the people who are no longer with us. Who aren't able to share our changing experiences. I especially miss my grandma. I miss her love, I miss her voice and I miss her being. My grandma was the best she showed me what pure unselfish love is and the best part is that she gave it to me. I feel sad when I think of how she wasn't there sharing some of my big milestones with her, like my high school graduation or how she isn't going to witness something bigger like my wedding, husband and kids.
It has been four years since she passed and I still think of her everyday, to console myself when she passed I said to myself there will be days when she will frequent my mind less and less, but that didn't happen and I used to cry myself to sleep at times, I only stopped because I came to know that its bad to cry over the dead as it leaves them in pain. I must bear the pain. If you are wondering what it is like to lose someone that close to you it just never ends you never forget.
To my grandma I will always love you. I kind of wish love did not exist so we don’t hurt, loving someone takes a lot of risk because you know that someday they won’t be there but you put yourself on the line because the feeling of love is just too good to let it go.
Sometimes when I think of death I wish I was born at a place where I had no one but myself and I would keep it that way so when I die I don’t hurt someone and no one hurts me.
